Depression is like wearing a really heavy blanket over your head that covers your eyes and forces you to look at the floor. It's not there all the time, but every so often it comes and clings on to you. It makes the simplest of tasks seemingly impossible to manage. Getting out of bed, washing yourself, making a cup of tea, answering the phone, writing a text or an email etc are all far too much trouble when your arms and hands feel like lead. It is alway much easier to just lie there, not to talk, not to think, not to move and just stare at the wall. You are breathing and existing but you are not feeling or living. In a strange way it is comforting and some times I wish I could just stay here forever...

This opportunity is special fore,as Emika's music has played in my head during the times of deep anxieties. In 2012, I was helping with a film festival that used Emika's tune to 3 hours as an intro. The theme of the (queer) festival was madness. It was a time when,after several triggers including an abusive relationship I started to have panic and anxiety attacks. I thought of death all the time,couldn't stop it. Took me 6 months to recover and slowly get back to a better condition. Since then,every.now and then I suffer from anxieties. I learned to make my peace with it. accepted that this could happen any time and that it is important to take care of the self. to look for others. to stay away from the abusers. I tend to fail the last one. so when Im really really down and need an emancipation kick, the 3 Hours song does the work. not everytime. and sometimes it makes me sad. but for me,its one of the most powerful songs and I always.feel emotions while listening to it. from the tunes and from the many memories it brings me.

Wenn ich depressiv bin, dann fühle ich mich sehr erschöpft, antriebslos und niedergeschlagen. Ich habe keine Energie bzw. Motivation etwas zu machen oder mich für irgendwas zu begeistern. Ich bin traurig und fühle mich einsam. Ein Unbehagen macht sich in mir breit. Gedankenkreisen wie ein Adler immer wieder um dieselben Sachen. Ich fühle mich verloren und finde keinen Sinn.

The outside world is like grooves a lesson from my deceased grandpa. I realize, when I'm down and fragile, when depressed that I look back to time, source, the environment and memories Every day a new opening,a new mission on many levels.. it gives a meaning to my being And then the truk At this point the groove, the history, the past memory and others memories at that time the courage comes. to write about my depression and reach out to other depressed I'd say depression becomes bigger because of time, memories, environment I tend to miss myself, And then I get weak

Masentuneena en jaksaisi olla ihmisten ympäröimänä. Mielelläni jäisin kotiin. Mutta kuka kuulisi ja näkisi vetäytymiseni taakse? Masentuneena ääni tarttuu kurkkuun ja on vaikea pyytää apua.

I dealt with depression and anxiety for many years in intervals. By doing self actualizing and self realization work I came to know that I am not that endity society created, but that I am the source of all life. Society reminds us everyday to chase, perform, take on personality...It's a false self that can never be fullfilled. Find the true you and there will be peace and satisfaction. Forget happiness and you will see the beauty in everything and the perfection of every experience.

Sin tristeza, ni felicidad. Es una nube gris opacando el impulso de vivir.

Депресијата е голема, празна и црна дупка која толку силно притиска во градите, силно боли, но недозволува ни солза да пуштиш.

A numbness, void of feeling, of experience, of detail, and yet tainted by irrepressible melancholy, tangible merely by its presence amongst an absence of sensory processing. The self-knowledge of impotence, the battle lines of depression so prescient and present beyond existential, but with only an inner murmur, tone deaf and stripped bare, with which to fight back. Debilitating! Suffocating! Dehumanising! Horror!

Powoli przybijam piątkę z moim smutkiem, choć nigdy nie będzie pomiędzy nami zgody. Potrafię już go nazwać, ale nie zawsze daję szansę mu odejść.

Никогда не переставай сражаться. Ищи радость в малом. Цени каждый момент. Ты можешь всё.

Wenn man sich nicht mehr erinnern kann, wann man das letzte mal wirklich, ehrlich glücklich war und es Jahre her sein muss. Es fällt schwer im Alltag von Leuten umgeben zu sein, die scheinbar immer positiv sind und du eine Maske aufsetzen musst um nicht direkt in Tränen auszubrechen. Man spielt dieses Spiel schon lange und kann es gut ohne, dass es jemandem auffallen würde...

Она то, что есть в моем маленьком мире. Не важно, как я не хочу ее замечать, она никуда не уйдет...

Deprese je jako velký černý pes, který chodí všude s tebou, nikdy jsi si ho nechtěla pořídit ale stejně si lehne ke všemu co máš ráda. Deprese způsobená samotou a neschopností navázat a udržet kvalitní vztahy mě potkala v období, které možná může být tím nejlepším v našem životě. Od 26 let se člověk musí srovnávat s tím, že přišel o většinu přátel, potýká se s pochybnostmi o smyslu čehokoliv o co se pokouší. Místo ochutnávání společně uvařených jídel je Fluzak, místo objetí jenom přikrývka, místo spousty sexu jen hodiny zbůhdarma proležené v posteli a místo sdílených vteřin prázdné dny. Probouzet se je skvělé. Nejhorší je usínání.

hrozně. thought its a good thing that finally theres so many ppl and musicians talk about depression&mental health. now its all i see and hear. it became a trigger of its own. i feel more and more ashamed of bein sick myself. falling in love with sadness. what does it mean? to cope? i feel in order to stay sane i need to reprogramme what ive been listening to. more taylor swift or sth. its horrible. it will get better. i know it will. but right now its horrible.

Moja depresja jest rakiem pozerajacym dusze... Sprawia fizyczny bol, dusi... Caly swiat wydaje sie byc miejscem gdzie umiera nadzieja...

Depression er som at være i en osteklokke, som man gerne vil ud af, og samtidig ønsker man, at den lukker sig tættere omkring en for at skærme for alt det, man ikke magter.

Para mim a depressão se manisfestou como uma grande perda de energia vital e de autoestima. Tive chance de melhorar quando revelei para família e amigos como de fato me sentia...

A rock in my chest: a feeling that weighs me down before I even realise that it has even begun. It can follow the brightest of moods and come seemingly out of nowhere, making me feel tired, hopeless and as though I just want to sleep and hide myself away until the feeling goes. At the heaviest of times, it pulls me down so that I feel there is no point any more. No hope. On the outside, you would not know.

Es gibt alles und nichts. Weder das Eine - noch das Andere ist mein Weg. Ich bin ferngesteuert von der Macht der Erinnerung. Und ich habe alles getan um die Erinnerung auszulöschen, bin aber nicht weniger empfindsam geworden bloss etwas vergesslich.

Depression is like wearing a really heavy blanket over your head that covers your eyes and forces you to look at the floor. It's not there all the time, but every so often it comes and clings on to you. It makes the simplest of tasks seemingly impossible to manage. Getting out of bed, washing yourself, making a cup of tea, answering the phone, writing a text or an email etc are all far too much trouble when your arms and hands feel like lead. It is alway much easier to just lie there, not to talk, not to think, not to move and just stare at the wall. You are breathing and existing but you are not feeling or living. In a strange way it is comforting and some times I wish I could just stay here forever...

This opportunity is special fore,as Emika's music has played in my head during the times of deep anxieties. In 2012, I was helping with a film festival that used Emika's tune to 3 hours as an intro. The theme of the (queer) festival was madness. It was a time when,after several triggers including an abusive relationship I started to have panic and anxiety attacks. I thought of death all the time,couldn't stop it. Took me 6 months to recover and slowly get back to a better condition. Since then,every.now and then I suffer from anxieties. I learned to make my peace with it. accepted that this could happen any time and that it is important to take care of the self. to look for others. to stay away from the abusers. I tend to fail the last one. so when Im really really down and need an emancipation kick, the 3 Hours song does the work. not everytime. and sometimes it makes me sad. but for me,its one of the most powerful songs and I always.feel emotions while listening to it. from the tunes and from the many memories it brings me.

Wenn ich depressiv bin, dann fühle ich mich sehr erschöpft, antriebslos und niedergeschlagen. Ich habe keine Energie bzw. Motivation etwas zu machen oder mich für irgendwas zu begeistern. Ich bin traurig und fühle mich einsam. Ein Unbehagen macht sich in mir breit. Gedankenkreisen wie ein Adler immer wieder um dieselben Sachen. Ich fühle mich verloren und finde keinen Sinn.

The outside world is like grooves a lesson from my deceased grandpa. I realize, when I'm down and fragile, when depressed that I look back to time, source, the environment and memories Every day a new opening,a new mission on many levels.. it gives a meaning to my being And then the truk At this point the groove, the history, the past memory and others memories at that time the courage comes. to write about my depression and reach out to other depressed I'd say depression becomes bigger because of time, memories, environment I tend to miss myself, And then I get weak

Masentuneena en jaksaisi olla ihmisten ympäröimänä. Mielelläni jäisin kotiin. Mutta kuka kuulisi ja näkisi vetäytymiseni taakse? Masentuneena ääni tarttuu kurkkuun ja on vaikea pyytää apua.

I dealt with depression and anxiety for many years in intervals. By doing self actualizing and self realization work I came to know that I am not that endity society created, but that I am the source of all life. Society reminds us everyday to chase, perform, take on personality...It's a false self that can never be fullfilled. Find the true you and there will be peace and satisfaction. Forget happiness and you will see the beauty in everything and the perfection of every experience.

Sin tristeza, ni felicidad. Es una nube gris opacando el impulso de vivir.

Депресијата е голема, празна и црна дупка која толку силно притиска во градите, силно боли, но недозволува ни солза да пуштиш.

A numbness, void of feeling, of experience, of detail, and yet tainted by irrepressible melancholy, tangible merely by its presence amongst an absence of sensory processing. The self-knowledge of impotence, the battle lines of depression so prescient and present beyond existential, but with only an inner murmur, tone deaf and stripped bare, with which to fight back. Debilitating! Suffocating! Dehumanising! Horror!

Powoli przybijam piątkę z moim smutkiem, choć nigdy nie będzie pomiędzy nami zgody. Potrafię już go nazwać, ale nie zawsze daję szansę mu odejść.

Никогда не переставай сражаться. Ищи радость в малом. Цени каждый момент. Ты можешь всё.

Wenn man sich nicht mehr erinnern kann, wann man das letzte mal wirklich, ehrlich glücklich war und es Jahre her sein muss. Es fällt schwer im Alltag von Leuten umgeben zu sein, die scheinbar immer positiv sind und du eine Maske aufsetzen musst um nicht direkt in Tränen auszubrechen. Man spielt dieses Spiel schon lange und kann es gut ohne, dass es jemandem auffallen würde...

Она то, что есть в моем маленьком мире. Не важно, как я не хочу ее замечать, она никуда не уйдет...

Deprese je jako velký černý pes, který chodí všude s tebou, nikdy jsi si ho nechtěla pořídit ale stejně si lehne ke všemu co máš ráda. Deprese způsobená samotou a neschopností navázat a udržet kvalitní vztahy mě potkala v období, které možná může být tím nejlepším v našem životě. Od 26 let se člověk musí srovnávat s tím, že přišel o většinu přátel, potýká se s pochybnostmi o smyslu čehokoliv o co se pokouší. Místo ochutnávání společně uvařených jídel je Fluzak, místo objetí jenom přikrývka, místo spousty sexu jen hodiny zbůhdarma proležené v posteli a místo sdílených vteřin prázdné dny. Probouzet se je skvělé. Nejhorší je usínání.

hrozně. thought its a good thing that finally theres so many ppl and musicians talk about depression&mental health. now its all i see and hear. it became a trigger of its own. i feel more and more ashamed of bein sick myself. falling in love with sadness. what does it mean? to cope? i feel in order to stay sane i need to reprogramme what ive been listening to. more taylor swift or sth. its horrible. it will get better. i know it will. but right now its horrible.

Moja depresja jest rakiem pozerajacym dusze... Sprawia fizyczny bol, dusi... Caly swiat wydaje sie byc miejscem gdzie umiera nadzieja...

Depression er som at være i en osteklokke, som man gerne vil ud af, og samtidig ønsker man, at den lukker sig tættere omkring en for at skærme for alt det, man ikke magter.

Para mim a depressão se manisfestou como uma grande perda de energia vital e de autoestima. Tive chance de melhorar quando revelei para família e amigos como de fato me sentia...

A rock in my chest: a feeling that weighs me down before I even realise that it has even begun. It can follow the brightest of moods and come seemingly out of nowhere, making me feel tired, hopeless and as though I just want to sleep and hide myself away until the feeling goes. At the heaviest of times, it pulls me down so that I feel there is no point any more. No hope. On the outside, you would not know.

Es gibt alles und nichts. Weder das Eine - noch das Andere ist mein Weg. Ich bin ferngesteuert von der Macht der Erinnerung. Und ich habe alles getan um die Erinnerung auszulöschen, bin aber nicht weniger empfindsam geworden bloss etwas vergesslich.














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Dear Fans,

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Thank you for visiting my page.

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I would like to invite you to share your experiences of depression and mental health. You can write anonymously and in your own language.

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By pre-ordering my album, you will also be supporting Music Minds Matter, a 24/7 service that helps musicians through tough times.

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Thank you for sharing!

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Emika ♥

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